Daesung: "I got so stressed cos I could never say 'no'" [NEWS]

Shared by on March 6, 2010  

[Star Diary]
This is Part 3 of a 10 part interview with Daesung in AsiaE's Star Diary.
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Daesung (22, Real name: Kang Daesung) was hard on himself, thinking that he wasn’t as good as the others when it came to preparation for their debut. But the result of his hard effort and training was the formation of ‘vocal cord nodules’, which announced the possible end of his singing career.

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”When we debuted, we were dubbed the ‘skill-based idol group’ but my voice would break 8 times out of 10 when singing our song ‘La La La’. I couldn’t even look at the others in the eye. I developed sociophobia and even started thinking stuff like ‘It would be better if I was just fired from YG’.”

For nearly a year, he desperately struggled with his voice. He was so nervous about screwing up on a high note on stage and giving the group a bad name when they had just debuted, that it caused him to develop stage fright on top of everything else.

”I was so gloomy that the members couldn’t even tease me lightheartedly. People tell me I was clouded by a dark vibe at the time. Noone could approach me and it was to the point that it was difficult for them to even try to tell me ‘It’s ok’.”

But Daesung got help from his senior Gummy (Real name: Park Ji Yeon) who had also experienced the same pain, and his vocal folds cured miraculously during the 6 months of rest after the release of their first album.

”I learnt a lot doing musicals. My stage fright disappeared after continually performing live on stage too. Since I was in singing academy, I’ve always thought anything is possible as long as you try hard enough.”

Daesung’s naïveté also caused him a lot of trouble. He’s the type to work hard on his own, keeping his emotions to himself no matter how unpleasant the task so he subconsciously stacked up a lot of stress.

”Even if I don’t want to, I can’t refuse people very well. I don’t like being called bad things, or saying ‘no’ to others. My inner personality is one that gets angered really easily but I must’ve been holding it all in without even realising. I went to an acupuncturist and they said I have anger disease. [omg its not even funny how effing STUPID that sounds in english] (laughs) The doctor there asked me why a young person like myself was so stressed out. I was surprised too.”

When he thinks back to his childhood, he wasn’t always smiling. He says it even feels like he had to put on a ‘smiling mask’ in front of cameras and the public since his debut in the entertainment industry.

The time after his debut that he spent waiting to be on broadcasts was irritating and exasperating for Daesung. And though these feelings slowly faded away after trying to comfort himself and repeatedly telling himself to ‘think on the bright side’, his emotions must have stacked up deep down within him without him even realising.

Trans Credits: sjay.x @ BBVIP.net

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  • http://twitter.com/jiyanz jiyan

    awww poor dae. he tried too hard. but glad that he's fine now. :)

  • afagyel

    omg i am just like dae! i could never say no and i always keep things to myself! hahah it's not healthy i tell you cos ive grown to become an angry kid, inside. =/ im tryna lose all the negativities now. HAHA. but im glad daesung could already cope with his problems and that he can smile like always now. :D:D:D:D dont you ever lose that smile daedae!! it's magical and it makes people happy! :D

  • moopies

    OH MY GOSH! he is such a normal person, its so weird! or is this not normal.. hehe oh Well! I Love Daesung, and if I werent planning on marrying TOP then I would definitely marry Daesung

    Interesting to think that he became the smiling angel only after meeting BigBang, he's so Positive! how could he not have always been smiling???

    Thanks for Sharing!! I absolutely Love iT!

  • BBTYlover

    You suffered a lot :(
    you are one of Big Bang members which means you are one of the best singers :) <3

  • Cody_may23

    We have the same in common DaeSung.I know how u feel because my lifestyle is just like yours my dream is to be a singer.I seriosly love you DaeSung if u were my boyfriend i'm not going to disapoint you

  • ilovebigbang123

    daesung's pics as a baby were so cute! xD

    poor daesung. he went all thru this to get his dream. but look at him now. part of bb, going on varieties shows like family outing and a lot of pple like him. thank u yg for accepting him

  • http://twitter.com/Chiharu_Nanami Chiharu_Nanami

    well oppa ~
    its no good to hold back you anger =] , if you have some kind of trouble or something in mind
    just talk to your hyung's , im 100% sure that they will understand and listen to it =]

    and if oppa still can't tell , just do something that make oppa forgot about the anger :D
    like singing , or walking , or sleeping , or eating etc ^^

    oppa fighting ~ ♥

  • Mell3578

    i guess i learn a lot from his story. so rare idol giving a good lesson like him did..

  • DS

    I hope you learned how to say no now...
    other people are important but how can we help others if we arent ok? (i think he already says no, but this litle part here was to people who are like him.)